Door May Be Locked

So yesterday didn't work out for a flight to D.C. I'm trying to fly standby because my friend has a friend, who's a pilot and apparently the Salt Lake International airport sucks ass for standby flights! I'm hoping I can get one for tomorrow. In the meantime, I'm enjoying the day off work and getting some cleaning done in my room. Maybe I'll even do some cooking for once! It's been a long time since I've cooked. Tells you how unhealthy I really am though I may not look it! Bleh!

P.S. Bleh is a word similar to fuck, not in meaning, but in where it can be used. It's an inside joke with me and some friends, but feel free to bleh away!

Opportunity Knocks

I'm flying to Washington D.C. tomorrow for a job interview! I've been talking with a friend who resides in the vicinity and who also happens to be a high school teacher with connections. He's convinced me to come out and interview for a position at some high school, so I'm obliging and gracing him with my company in the process. I'm very grateful to him for helping me out and being a good friend as well!

I'm going because I feel it could be an amazing opportunity, but I'm not making any decisions until I see how I feel about the situation. Oh and also the interview has to go well. Forgot that part of the deal. I do love D.C. very much, so if opportunity knocks, I have to decide if it's the right door to open. I'll of course let everyone know what happens in the choosing game. Wish me luck!

New Year, New Start

Well, the holiday season has come and gone and a new year has begun. 2010 was an interesting year for me. Some things were good, others not so much, but I'm a stronger person going into 2011. I hope I can make this year a great one and make the necessary changes I need to ensure my life is more fulfilling. They won't be easy, but they will be worth it.

Some things I hope to achieve are a new job, a better body as well as a healthier one, pay off some debt, start school again, and overall just be a happier person. I know the things I need to do, but man can it be hard for me to motivate myself. Not to mention I have no self-discipline. At all. Maybe I should work on that too...

Anyway, I hope you all had an enjoyable holiday season and hope your dreams can become reality in 2011!

P.S. I'll try to post more. Hehe.

I'm Alive!

I'm alive! I can't believe it's been so long since I've posted. Hopefully it won't take so long for the next one. So much has happened I don't even know where to start! Let me think for a minute...Oh I know! Let's start with two amazing men who are going to make two amazing superheroes!

First up is Ryan Reynolds as the Green Lantern!

Last is Chris Evans as Captain America!

Awwww yeah! I can not wait to see these two kicking some ass! Or to see their asses in those costumes kicking some ass! It's just going to be a lot of ass and it's going to be pure bliss! God they're beautiful! Okay I'll stop drooling now so I can at least finish this post.

I'm going to try school again in January! I'm going to get my associates in Interior Design and then probably finish my bachelors at an out of state school. Preferably a school in California, but we'll see how things go. I'm just finishing up all the admission steps so I can register for classes. I'm kind of excited! I think it will be challenging and fun and allow me to express myself, but also bring joy to other people's lives, which is the best part. A guilty pleasure of mine is HGTV. I watch it all the time! My favorite part of every show is the reveal. I love seeing the client's reaction and the pure joy emanating from their whole being. It's inspiring! I've thought about Interior Design as a career for a long time so I'm finally going to give it a try. Wish me luck!

For those of you who didn't know, this fall I had a routine colonoscopy. Kind of embarrassing. I had to undergo this procedure because one day, out of the blue, my stomach started hurting like Hell! I was at work and had to leave early because I was in the bathroom so much. Even more embarrassing. This was a Sunday, so the only clinics open are InstaCare clinics. I waited forty-five minutes to see a damn doctor! I was pissed! Especially when the doctor told me there's nothing they can do for you here, so you need to go to the ER. I was even more pissed! So I go to the ER and spend six or seven hours there, going through the routine procedures. Getting poked endlessly so they could get the fucking IV in, drink the contrast for the CT Scan, lay around, go to the bathroom, lay around some more, go to the bathroom again, lay around, finally get the CT Scan, and wait some more to be told what the fuck is wrong with me only to find out the CT Scan couldn't show anything, but since there's blood in my stool I have to get a colonoscopy! Luckily throughout all this I had two great guys to help me out and I'm very grateful to them for being there for me. Anyway, I had the colonoscopy and the results from the biopsies were normal. Thank God! The report said it was just a bout of colitis and it will go away over time, but I swear my stomach hasn't been the same. Whatever. Effin' stomach.

Alright I'm all blogged out. I'll post again soon and as always, thanks for reading my insignificant poppycock! Hehe! I said cock.

How Many More?

Tonight I attended a candlelight vigil for a man I did not know, but I wanted to pay my respects for the life he lived and sadly, chose to end. The vigil was beautiful with many people there to show their love and support. I was touched by the words shared in this man's memory.

I don't know why he chose to end his life. What trials did he face? What demons? How long did his internal struggle last? I'm pained he chose to end his journey, but I hope now he has found peace.

My heart hurts! It truly, deeply hurts for those who have taken their lives this month. For those who have taken theirs before. It hurts for them and for anyone who has been affected by these tragedies.

How many more? How many more lives will be lost before hatred is turned to love? Intolerance to acceptance? Fear to understanding? How many more souls must keep struggling to be accepted for who they are, not what they are? How many families must be torn apart before we realize we are all a family? That we're all in this together? How many tears must be shed to wash away the poison that is bigotry? How many more?

I ask anyone who reads this to please search deep in your hearts for the love I know is there. If you know someone who is a member of the LGBTQ community, please open your heart to accept them as they are! Don't let what you've been taught get in the way of what you truly feel in your heart to be right! We are people just like you. We are different, but we are the same. We laugh, we cry, and we love.

We are all on this journey of life together and I look forward to the day when we can all share it together in peace, happiness, and most importantly, love.

Ramblings

Hmmm....what to ramble on about? I think I'll begin with my reason for not getting into a relationship at the present time because many people have been asking why I'm not dating anyone. The main reason holding me back from a relationship is my goal of moving to California before the end of the year. I don't want to get involved with anyone just to break it off when I move.

Why am I moving to California? I'm moving to California for a change. I think a change would really help me at this time in my life. I feel stuck where I'm at now like I can't move forward and if anything, I keep taking steps back. I don't want to be the person who looks back on their life and says if only...so I'm taking steps I feel are necessary for me to be happy and I'm doing it while I'm still young. Is there anything any of you feel you should do? If there is I hope you'll do it and won't have to say if only...Believe in yourself! Don't let your dreams get away! Don't let yourself say you're comfortable with your life if there's something you long for. Go for it! If you fail it's okay. These are things I've been telling myself for a while now and why I'm taking steps to do things I've always dreamed about.

Something else I've been pondering a lot lately is all the crazy shit going on in the US right now. Whether it's loony politicians, oil spills, or just your neighbor being a dumb ass, there is some shit going down in this country. I'm not going to get into anything specific, but I will say I'm tired of all the hatred people have for one another! Come on guys! There's no place for it. None! You want America back? Then stop your childish behavior! I can't believe how many people claim to be upstanding citizens of the United States, yet they have so much to do with all of the country's problems. You want to save America? You want to make this country proud? Then do your part to make this country free of hate. Stop being selfish and prideful. Stop degrading one another. It's scary to think of where the US could be headed in the future, so how long will it take us to realize we need to change before it's too late? I could go on but I'm not going to. I'll spare you.

Before I end this post I want to say to all of my loved ones that I love you and am grateful for you all!

Recent Happenings

Hi there! Allow me to reintroduce myself. I'm Nick and this is my blog. I'm going to stop apologizing for not posting regularly because frankly, I'll just post when I feel like it! So deal with it! Anywho...

Recent happenings in my life have been pretty good ones. I've been to Las Vegas again and loved it! I saw a show, drank to my hearts content, gambled a little, and even got some shopping done. I must say I bought some excellent clothes this time and no I did not spend hundreds of dollars on a single article of clothing! Go me!

I've booked a flight to Boston in August to go see some friends out there and I can't wait! I have a goal while there to not consume too much alcohol so I can remember most of the trip this time. What can I say? I think I'm becoming a lush.

I've been to three festivals. Pride Festival, Living Traditions Festival, and the Utah Arts Festival. All had nice things to offer, but I think my favorite would have to be the Utah Arts Festival. I just love it! Wish I could afford some of the fucking cool art. My room would be awesome!

I finally made it up to my hometown after a prolonged hiatus. It was great to get away, not drink for a weekend, see my family, and just relax! My little brother performed in a show, which was pretty fucking funny and I got to see an old high school buddy, which was great. I'm going to try to make it up there more often, but we'll see how my efforts unfold.

I had an amazing July 4th weekend! Friday night I went to Pure and had a blast. Saturday consisted of a family BBQ followed by a night out at Jam. Sunday I went to a pool party, went to another party, went to Jam, and then ended the morning in a hot tub and pool that were amazing for several reasons, which I'll let you imagine on your own! Don't be dirty either! You disgust me!

These happenings were filled with wonderful family and friends for whom I'm very grateful to have in my life!